i have enjoyed planning my wedding. there are so many detail-oriented decisions, and i feel i am good at such decisions. but it seems that my problem isn’t not knowing what i want, but instead knowing exactly what i want and not being able to find it anywhere.
i want a cake cutter/server set with a wooden or tortoiseshell handle. (i did find a tortoiseshell one at nordstrom, but it isn’t a set, only a server.)
and i want a deep red or gold evening bag with embroidery or beading — maybe something that looks autumnal? — that isn’t way out of my price range.
i know that these are insignificant decisions, and no one attending the wedding will notice either of these details. and i realize that there are much more important things i should be thinking about, such as my dissertation topic. or lebanon. or the starbucks cupcake. and i know that i should let these little details go, and stop approaching snot-nosed saleswomen — women who find wood-handled cake servers to be an anomaly on par with a good parking space at target — with my crazy eyes, asking them to please produce the long-sought-after cake serving set.
but i know that finding exactly what i want is possible, as it has happened in other wedding-planning categories. such as the cake design. or the reception site. or the groom.
and so i will persist.
one month and three weeks to go.